I'm back, but not better than ever.

Consider this my rock bottom.

It has been almost exactly one year since I have posted on this blog. I have truly neglected you precious blog, and for that, I am sorry.

For the first time in my life, I am strong enough to admit that I have let myself go, and that I am not in the best place in my life...

....WELL, I'm in HAWAII, and that is the best place for me to be physically, but I'm not at the best place mentally and emotionally. Just clarifying ;-)

BUT, I am the only person who has the power to change my life, and that is exactly what I intend to do. At this stage in the game, I am not ready to air all of my dirty laundry to the general public, but just know that it has to do with my health and wellness. Once I get a little further along in my journey, I will share more details.

I have withdrawn from school this semester, medically. I was having some severe pains in my stomach and missed 5 days of classes, and had a whirlwind of a time getting the days excused from the University of Hawaii. Having said that, it was easiest, and best, for me to just withdraw this semester. I was extremely upset for a few days, but after an uplifting talk from my Dad, I think that this might be a blessing in disguise for myself. I need to take this time to focus on my health, and my well-being before I can go back to school and grab the bull by the horns. When you don't feel good about yourself, and you are having health problems, you don't do your best work at school, and that is where I found myself last semester. I can not graduate coasting along at the GPA I have right now, because thats not my best, and I'm just not going to do that to myself.

SO, what I need, is just support. I need my friends and family to cheer me along, and be there with me through my ups and downs. I can't do this alone.

I need to get these issues figured out, so that I can be back, and better than ever :)

Never looking back.



"Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm." - Ralph Waldo Emerson